I actually wanted something else to do other than just 8 to 5 daily office job. I wanted to open up a business career or maybe blogging or start up a Youtube Channel but I don't have the drive to do so mainly because I kept thinking that I am not capable enough to do any of them. Maybe I am it is just that I probably need some start up from friends and love ones on that. I may not sound like an interesting blogger as I blog for my own pleasure and leisure. Now that I have a hubby, I feel that freedom is the thing that I have been experiencing and it is something that I feel good about. Do note that in marriage life you need to give each other space for your spouse to enjoy life and enjoy it with you. So don't be scared of marriage life and think that it is gonna restrict a lot of your personal interest in stuff. The both of you need to negotiate positively and always have each others' back to move on smoothly together in life. I personally think that I should get married earlier than I should right now cos I feel that I get to do a lot more things than I was before. Well that's my take. Ya'll may have a different view on marriage and it will all come down to individual's way of leading it I suppose. That's all for today for a brief update in my life. I may or may not come back tomorrow for any random discussions but I do hope to be active back again on this bloggy.

Sayonara.

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And Emma Watson was definitely the one to look forward to.

Her sweetness just caught my eye and motivates me to go simple with my style.

The week when past fast this week as it was a total mayhem at the beginning.

Dearest was down with fever and wasn't doing too good.

I missed him though, very much indeed.

I was super tired this week and just need a big warm hug, that's all.

Nevertheless, we did watched The Avengers on May Day and it was kinda awesome.

I'm not a Marvell fan though, so I watched it out of fun and curiosity.

I must admit Captain America was kinda cute.

Oh well.

I must say I felt kinda lonely yet trying be independent in a way so as to live my life with or without the people I love.

It wasn't easy.

I may be 23 but the way I was brought up was always full of support from my family and when it comes to times that I had to make my own decision without anyone else's guidance or opinion, it felt wired and 'naked'.

I have to always have that constant support from my love ones if not things won't turn out good.

I'm not good in making decisions but when I did, it is either I desperately wants it so bad or I just wanna have due to frustration to let the anger or satisfaction feeling out.

There's a lot of anger in me and a lot of endurance since forever but nobody knows for how long or how much that I've kept deep inside me.

There's a lot of things in life that I wanna do but there's so many barriers and rules involved.

Even with the simplest things.

Sometimes it's frustrating to be facing that for all the things you are doing and eventually you have to follow it even if you don't like it.

I may rebel but I have definitely have no courage to do so but just to content all it in my heart.

I don't see the reason why should I let it out as nobody will understand or even stand side by side with me just to understand what I feel.

Parents are parents.

Respect is the ultimate thing for them.

I just have to handle it myself.

Been knocking off from work late since these past few days.

It's freaking tiring and my May didn't start off well.

Guess what?

I didn't get to go for Phuket.

How's that?

That sucks.

Tell me about it.